BROWNIES. 
 What makes them so irrestible?

While I'm certainly not truly a brownie fan, just having a neutral liking to it, I would earnestly say that Laura and Yiying are the absolute diehards! How they managed to persuade me into following them to take nearly an hour's ride to Dhoby Ghaut just to get one of 'em famous (or infamous for strict dieticians) brownies sold at PO.sh, I have no idea. 

 
 But damn they look awfully sinful.

After finally getting those brownies, we all decided to head down to a cosy & relaxing place to savour our New Found Glories. Marina Bay. 


Do you know what's really funny? Just yesterday, I was hanging out with Shanice and we sort of passed by this place so she told me," Ya know, this is MY spot. This is really the place my friends and I just chillax and talk trash." So I was like, alright, I am so bringing my friends down here man! Then I told Laura & Yiying that the scenery here and everything are truly spectacular and we should all head down there but guess what? I thought Marina Square was over at the Marina Bay MRT station and all we could see when we arrived are multiple construction sites. =.=;  "Thanks Ysabel, the scenery here is really nice." They are both so sacastically bitchy! So all we did was...

       
  CHAT.

 
 AND CHAT.


 & took alot of pictures of the scenery. Hahaha.

We actually talked about alot of stufff while we're at it. About dating, boys, gossip, family etc, the usual Gossip Girl-que stuff. Heh. But through that, I actually learnt about alot of things. For example, we were like talking about each others' personality and character and stuff and I did mention stuff like how Laura's always answering the phone or texting halfway through a conversation almost all the time (I'm not kidding!) and how hilariously bimbotic Yiying was whenever she complains about something trival (!) but I also learnt that I'm quite retarded? Hahaha. Its funny what we can talk about. Oh yea! I almost forget: Some dude actually came to ask Laura for her phone number and he's been looking at us for quite a while. Laura's quite the babe! :D

 

Yep, we took some pretty awesome pictures of the Singapore Flyer! Has anyone been there before? If you have, you would have noticed a garden called the "Yakult Rainforest Discovery". Hahhaa, cheesy name aside, the place was actually artifically beautiful. And out of mischief, Yiying and I try to climb onto the huge fake boulders and people were actually stared at yiying & I menacingly. But ha! None of the authorities was contacted. ;D

 
Millions of teenage girls worldwide would kill to have my hot bod. HAHAHA.

Mucking Around Time was up and then we all finally decided to return home.While I was on my way back home from the place, Laura and I actually discussed briefly on more serious issues edged in between our IPOD-listening sessions and.. Let's just say I'm yet again inspired.

"Revolutionary Metamorphosis in Progress" is still very much applied now. (:

Okay, I am not going to hide anymore. What's the point? 
Just recently Sufiena said that my posts and entries are super emo-ish. True enough. But I can't help it! Everything has spiraled downwards and all I can do is to pray hard which I sometimes, don't even feel the want to. I mean, I know God gives me problems so that I can grow in faith and character but seriously, ALL AT ONCE?? I honestly consider my ability to continue withstanding and doubt if the Grace I received is insufficient for survival. Nevertheless, I know I should continue to keep believing in Him and pray for some good to come out of it. The story of Jacob soothes my soul. He was entirely stripped out of family, wealth, food and even health but still kept staying true to the Lord. Occasionally I wonder that Satan could be using me to treaten God as well. Now then, doesn't that make me a bad Christian? Oh well. I just have to keep praying even harder. 

"Exactly what problems do you have that troubles you so much?" you might ask.
Well, curtains up because I have a whole freakshow lined up for you. Firstly, there's this infamous cheating case. Yes, I am the cheater. I was the one who left the bloody textbook in the toilet so that I can take a glimpse and score for my F&N. Alot of you out there knew it was me but kept mum about the whole thing, thanks alot. Really. I really appreciate it, more than words can ever express. However, I also knew that the truth will eventually show its face one day and saw it coming. Simply of just a moment of folly! Maybe I've gotten away with too many things already, too many that my ability to think about the consequences has been numbed and paralyzed? That must be the case which leaded to the second problem.

Remember just a few seconds ago I was talking about my ability to think? Yes, I have made yet ANOTHER mistake which I feel so sinful about. As you all would know, today's the big day for all choir members as they will be performing in the prestigious and surprisingly high-class Victoria Concert Hall. Well, vainity got the better of me. I was like so eager to look better than I already am and caught myself stealing my mum's money from the Medicine Cabinet which she thought I didn't know about. 50 bucks for a pair of contacts? The price I have to pay was so not worth it. And to make the matter worse, I didn't purchase the damn thing. Argh! Alright, so actually I have already stolen this 50 bucks from the cabinet, intending to trudge down to the spectacle shop and go frameless but damn, time was limited so I ended up not getting it into my eye sockets. However, little do I know that I have actually left the 50 bucks outside my house and had totally forgotten about it! Later in the night Dad saw it and showed it to Mum. 
"Ysabel, how much did you spend today?" Mum inquired, unsuspected of anything, I replied "10 dollars" back. 
"And did you borrow any money from your friends?" 
"Errrrrrr... no?"
"Then how do you explain the 50 dollar note your father found outside the house! If you didn't borrow money from your friends then where does that money came from? Are those mine?"
This time, I knew I was busted. "Errr yes, those are yours." I tried talking my way out of the problem like stating that I was going to tell her that I took her money but later after I came back home because I'm afraid that I don't have enough to spend. But I just knew that in all our hearts, we knew of the current situation at hand. Now Mum is seriously disappointed and totally cut off all trust in placing our funds at home because of me. And dad? Yea, this reaffirms that its his good move to stop believing whatever I have said or done ever since Primary 6. OUCH. OUCH. OUCH. ): 

Thirdly, its my academic status. For this issue, I can say that this is just exactly what happened in Secondary 2. You know when you are too lazy to do your homework and kept procrastinating and that results in befriending Mr. Red Egg. *Sigh* I have not exactly seen my results yet, but I know its bad. Terrible. Sucks. How am I going to let my parents sign this crap when I have promised them to work hard this year? With the cheating issue to rub salt on wound, thank you very much. After knowing that my grades are rapidly going downhill, I have since started to be more serious in my work and check my work attitude from time to time. But yet, I still lack behind and my body has surccumbed to laziness and failed me. Computers, comics, magazines and even friends have been obstructing my path to a more efficient and responsible Ysabel and its not even their fault. *sigh* Tell me Lord, what do you want me to do?! I'm gettting baptized by Saturday, dammit! 

Its times like this I feel that God and Satan is toying with me.

"Yes, I admit that I'm in the wrong. I shouldn't have done what I did. So Lord, if you would, please save me from the approaching wrath that I have to face. Terrified as I am, I have no guts to face the consequences.. so would You, in all favor, grant me this escape just like the many others? But all according to Your will too. If you have decided to let me taste 'punishment' and face the music, I will do it willingly Lord. I won't grumble because I know that You are with me and You know that I can go through it. Or provide enough Grace to stand it. In any way, I would thank You and praise You for only you know, what's really best for me. Thank you."

Yea, it is an open prayer. Something I'm absolutely not proud of but I just wanna prove that if I did something wrong, I should be able to stand up and say," I did it." Like many other teachers whom had told the class before, "If you are able to do it, you must be able to face the consequences." How true. I was just reflecting to myself recently about the many times I've prayed to God, telling him that I'm sorry and please don't let soso&so befall on me. And he always take it away. Aways. Now my own actions has caused this huge commotion and it seems like God wants me to take up the 'punishment' and move on, no-no to redemption this time. This very much reminds me of Christs' Passion, except he's taking the punishment that is not caused my his sins but for salvation of all mankind. Now I can feel how terrified he is, knowing that he's going to be crucified. It will definitely going to be excruciating, in all areas: mentally, physically, psychological etc.

Alright, this is just a little something I want everyone to take back after reading this. And this is,
"Pray to Him for help, for he always saves. But trust in his decision when He says "no"."